The wrinkles

Unlike the wrinkles on a shirt that get pressed on, with no stories to share, the wrinkles on a face mean so much more. They highlight the years of laughter, the moments of tears, the days of toil and more importantly the beauty of time. They are like journey lines, each telling a different story. The ones around the eyes speak about the heartfelt smiles that made their way from the lips to the eyes, the furrows near the brow retain those un-worded disapprovals , those on the forehead, the unabashed exclamations, the creases near the mouth roar with the sound of laughter, and those under the chin scream of the unshed tears that you pursed your way through. 

Do we have to smoothen these and erase a part of the past? Do we have to make them disappear? Ageing is inevitable but ageing elegantly and beautifully is something we should still hold on to, no?

The UN speaker and the Socialist

PTM time and it's exciting.

I confidently walk across to the medical room which is the make-shift  ptm space. The teacher starts with - what can I say about her ma'am, she is perfect in everything she does. She is sincere and next year I plan to put in a word for extended work.

She talks about her writing, math skills and science interests. She asks me if I have seen her model un speech and urges me to to read it . She says she will be great at whatever she chooses to do in life. She gives me a breakdown of her temperament, interactions (with her friends and sister). She has kept an eye on my kid as though she was one of her own.

I brim with pride for my daughter and heartfelt gratitude for the teacher. The rare teardrop makes an appearance.

I gingerly move on to the next classroom. The teacher has her things out and I put in my bag. She starts off by saying how her handwriting has improved and how confident and vocal she had become. How friendly she is with both boys and girls alike and how beautifully she can sing and dance.

The teacher has been the second mother to my child. The little caterpillar entered this class and has come out a beautiful butterfly.

I brim with pride for my daughter and heartfelt  gratitude for the teacher. Again, I realize that now that not so rear tear drop makes an appearance

Two different feedbacks but two absolutely brilliant feedbacks. My daughters are different in so many ways and similar in so many ways. I shall and should celebrate each similarity and difference with equal pride.

Love them.

The wandering moss

I am the one who picks up and moves. I am the one who receives the hugs and goodbyes. I am the one who is always brought up to think that change is the only constant. It feels weird to be the one who is staying back. It is a feeling of stability that is reassuring and annoying at the same time. It's a feeling that am not used to.

I get restless, listless, depressed,bored - of the scenery, the routine, thankfully not the people.

People use the phrase, put down your roots. I never seem to have and somehow feel that I never will.

One Truth

Why does the innocence of a chid's voice invoke so much more spirituality? Is it because they are untouched by any of the vices? There is purity and clarity in their voice and tone. It shatters your ego, breaks into all your insecurities and makes you completely vulnerable. 

And I am not talking here about a God or religion but just the true essence of acknowledging that there is something bigger than you and yourself. Amidst all the logic and certainty, there is another energy that does make that one small change.

All of us go through ups and downs in faith on the basis of incidents in one's life. During intolerable times, some hold onto that faith longer and firmer whereas some question that faith. But I feel, we question and then we seek peace and we come back to that one truth.

The bond

One has seen life, the other is about to, one has known, experienced , lived, the other is going to know, experience and live. But they are the bestest of friends, they bare their soul to each other and they laugh and live like they are the same age.

They feed off each other and live off one another. Distances dont matter, time doesnt matter, they hit off where they left. Childhood is relived, time is being made. 

This bond is sacred, divine, necessary and absolutely fantastic. I am so glad that in some small way, I have helped seal this.

I am so glad that I knew mine. I lived her childhood through her eyes. She lived mine. 

This is the "Grand" bond, strong, loving and ever-lasting. For the self-less grandparents and the ever-loving grandchildren whose hearts brim with an emotion more than love, more than affection and something so brilliantly "un-nameable"

Doe & a clown

How can somebody bring so much joy? A little butterfly that flutters around, a doe that gracefully hops and mesmerizes us, a clown that can make you roll in splits. All this in one beautifully packaged darling is Nidhu.

She is carefree, sensitive and boisterous , all at the same time. For her, her world revolves around her amma, appa, akka , akka and akka! And then her 3 close friends.

She can be content swaying to Ghoomer or Pinga or Roar or 500 miles or actually any music.

She cannot settle for culinary mediocrity. She needs food tasty and hot. One look at this little thing would suggest a complete disinterest for anything food. But quite the contrary

She is nearing 5 and is developing a beautiful personality. My baby!

She turns 9

It was my daughter's 9th birthday. A remarkable landmark when the kid is slowly disappearing and the girl is blooming. We had 10 of her friends invited over. Wow what fun.

Girls are the best. I will say so because I have two ;). They are truly beautiful flowers. When I  say flowers I don't mean the pure dainty ones that yearn protection. I mean there are different kinds. The boisterous ones, the soft petaled but strong ones, the thorny ones, the truly open colorful ones.. They are all different types but they are the joy of life.

I realized, that the kids did not need fancy events, locations or any such thing. They needed a place to be themselves and run amok. The event they enjoyed the most was just running around the park or dancing to arbitrary songs.

And the best sight was, then and now, they would all hug each other like it's the most natural thing to do. So warm, so natural. 

I love this phase and I want her to enjoy every bit of it